| njalo |
[Aug. 20th, 2007|12:45 am] |
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| | strong island | ] |
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| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bongo maffin | ] |
right now, accept the situation. like brenda fasse. |
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| suns declination |
[Jul. 26th, 2007|10:07 am] |
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| | country. | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | differences - genuwine | ] |
2 weeks of bleeding to death. |
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| back in the sun |
[May. 20th, 2007|08:30 pm] |
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| |  a little nervous | ] |
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| | Sinking Ships | ] |
i'm a little unsure of everything right now, and i cant help feeling restless. graduation is this week and its all over with high school, finally.
summer vacation is around the corner. i'm totally stoked.
i leave uganda on the 16th of june, to the UK & France for the Earth Crisis dates. and then i'll be in NYC by late June.
i dont know what i'm doing. sure, i want to hang out for a good minute but then what when that gets played out? i'm so afraid of comitting to a certain place, and staying put. lately, it feels like its so much easier to leave, i get better at it everytime. i never thought that would be a problen in new york. maybe it isnt and i just think it is.
okay, fine. soon enough, the answers will unravel themselves. but one thing is sure, i'm not sticking around nyc for the winter.
lately, i've been hanging out a lot with a few genuine people making my last weeks here count for all its worth. most of all, i'm totally in LOVE. and at times, i just want to fucking scream so hard, because i have never felt so crazy before. and its not even like i want to get married but shit, i know....stronger than you ever knew, stronger then i ever knew. so what comes next with me and you? i cant escape... i cant run as far, i cant run as fast, i cant get free of you. its utterly impossible.
and the craziest thing, is i knew it all along.
this week is going to be one the longest weeks ever, but thats okay. i'll take it all in day by day. because i know never again will i ever be exactly where i am now, 18 without a clue, evenings on my balcony, listening to jazz on sundays, staying up all night on the phone, laughing about whatever with good friends...the thing is its all very unique and on to its own. i know that no where else where will i feel the way i feel here. and thats special.
and im ready for nostalgic and very new feelings back home, and anywhere. maybe indonesia, maybe costa rica or maybe capetown with my favorite person in the world.
x's & ohh's
nicki
p.s.
SUMMER '07 HERE I COME!
XVX.
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| are you still down? |
[Apr. 2nd, 2007|11:06 pm] |
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today was good day. i'm kinda in love with this country. |
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[Feb. 25th, 2007|05:55 pm] |
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you put no fear in my heart |
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| with my G-A-T i dont give a fuck |
[Jan. 28th, 2007|11:38 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  straight chillin | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the new SHOOK ONES. mad good | ] |
so quick update. its been a minute since i wrote in this thing.
+i decided im going to hang out in southern africa when i get out of school, and then travel to Europe. and go see Earth Crisis i am very excited. south america can hold off for now, i will make it there in the autumn i believe..
+i'm doing a slyvia owori fashion show with a bunch of friends, it should hella fun. sylvia owori is one the biggest fashion designers in east africa.
+about to take astronomy classes
+i'm dating a boy who is unlike any other boy who i have ever dated before for he only sports designer brands and armani cologne. he is absolutely obbessed with futbol. which is plus.
+ i recieved a bunch of good music from Neils distro. im happy.
-not playing enough bball or futbol
- way to much school work.
-not enough time by the pool at country club.
word. thats that.
nicki
xVx
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| big girl boppin' |
[Dec. 17th, 2006|12:14 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | africa | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  GOOD | ] |
| [ | music |
| | samba music | ] |
life has been pretty sweet in the motherland, first and foremost x-mas vacation is here! also been crashing x-mas partys (pictures with santa!), being larger than life, hanging out with some of the richest mofo's in uganda like the Prince which is fucking wild. umm, been playing lots of soccer at the country club with lots of good friends, clubbin on friday nights. international life of leisure what can i say.
i'm also really stoked about the rasberry sorbet i made last night, it was heavenly...about to make some vegan pancakes and french toast , some tofu scramble for brunch, and chill on the balcony with good friends. yeppp. lifes good here.
but i'm also really stoked because my braces are finally off, which is nice. what else is reallly nice is that i will be visiting nyc by next week, im keeping it on the low right this second until things are confirmed. i have kindof dieing grandparents in nebraska so we are going on a compassionate leave. which is awesome cause i didnt even know the next time i would be back home nor did imagine it so soon.
yess!
x's & oh's
nicki |
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| the only words i can remember are the ones you gave me |
[Nov. 8th, 2006|06:27 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  okay | ] |
| [ | music |
| | true till death documentary | ] |
whats new?
i turned 18yrs on the 22nd of October, it was awesome i had fireworks dedicated to me. Fireworks because it was on the same day of Diwali festival of lights. So we ran around, freaking out because we right under the fireworks way too close for comfort. it was amazing though, i love fireworks. by the end of the night we all jumped into the pool with our underwear on. all in all a good 18th birthday.
last week was all about futbol it was great, the tournament called ISSEA went on in our school. ISSEA is basically every international school on eastern africa coming together to compete in volleyball, basketball and most importantly SOCCER, so the schools included Ethipoia, South Africa (Joburg), Kenya, Tanzania, Zimbabwe and Uganda. last year it was Jo'Burg and Zimbabwe selected this year it was our home court Uganda. it was so much fun. I fucking love being international and meeting other kids in the international community. its pretty much the best thing ever.
I think about how when i graduate it will all be over, and thats very depressing. I don't ever want to stop traveling. but i'm fucking stoked be out of school next year and hella nervous. anyway, i think i'm going to work for the UN. that way i'll never stop being international.
so me, cassi, these kids Piers and Josiah are going to be silkscreening shirts. I'm way stoked cause i have lots of ideas. first design being a Unicorn tee particularly for xVx girls. i think we are going to call our clothing line "Old Friends". its gonnna be off da charts kidzz.
started basketball yesterday, it was fun. basketball ISSEA anyone?
balllinnnn like jim jonez
nicki
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| force open the eyes of the blind. |
[Oct. 2nd, 2006|10:11 pm] |
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| | aight | ] |
| [ | music |
| | cant hold on- Medaphor | ] |
i'm about to turn 18. thats intense.
this weekend me and a bunch of kids are going up to northern Uganda to the district of Lira. to paint a memorial with the ex-child soldiers who were affected by the Lord Resistance Army. Many of the child soldiers are missing ears, lips, fingers all from the LRA rebels.
I'm stoked to do this trip up to Lira though, I hear all about the LRA and the terrible things that are happening to people up North and it feels so distant even though its happening 6/7 hours away. I dont know how i'm going to handle some of the awful truths, but its something i need to be exposed to. cassi and i will probably be taking a journalist there. and hopefully, my fathers work is out there the same time as we are so we dont have to sleep in tough surroundings. i cant even imagine it, this trip is all to fucking real.
on a lighter note...
*I'm teaching a cooking class for the young ones doing only vegan meals, i start tomorrow...i'm stoked.
*Neil in Joburg asked me to contribute to his new zine coming out, i've always wanted to do a split and who better then Neil. awesome.
and school is draining the fucking life out of me, i dont even know if i can do this IB shit anymore. everyone keeps telling me how priveleged i will be once i get the diploma. but working this hard for something my heart isnt really at, is real difficult. i wonder if its worth it.
i just wanna rock out. pretty much.
lovelovelove,
nicki
xVx |
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| summertime |
[Aug. 20th, 2006|04:34 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | strong island | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | eternal- SHELTER | ] |
just when this summer got really bad, it got really good. everything has been a fucking blast. and it will only get better.
xo
nicki |
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| ahh sweet boy |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|01:56 am] |
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are you the new person drawn towards me?
x's & ohhs
nicki |
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| after a long river of silence |
[Jul. 3rd, 2006|01:14 pm] |
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its good to be back new york.
today will consist of flying kites, building sand castles, being all skittish because of the ocean, sun, sun and more sun.
love love love,
nicki |
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| time away |
[May. 22nd, 2006|11:57 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Code13 | ] |
this weekend has been pretty fun, yesterday i did the Fight Hunger walk which took place in 117 countries all over the world, it was a really amazing thing to be apart of. i was pretty sick and it was raining really hard but i didnt turn back, nor did anyone else. we walked through the dirty muddy streets, by the end of it we were all covered in mud. it was insane. In Kampala about 3,000 people walked and more people were walking in various parts of Uganda. yeah it was an awesome thing to be apart of.
oh yeah!change of plans. and i will be in NYC at the end of June! i'm pretty much stoked to be back. one more month left of school to go.
love love love,
nicki
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| this never happened |
[May. 2nd, 2006|05:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Where Eagles Dare | ] |
life has been a lot of fun lately, the two past weeks, or april in general has just been lots of fun. i enjoy hanging out with my friends here non stop, a couple in particular. yesterday night was awesome it was south africas Freedom day and Sadies dad is the South african ambassador so we all went to this reception and it was way fancy, i almost felt out of place cause i'm just an NGO girl and my friends are all diplomats, everyone at the reception was a diplomat. it was a funny sight by the end of the night all the ambassadors had to much wine drink and they were all dancing the eletric slide.
its may 2nd, so i'm feeling good about that, 1 month left to go!
okay ughh theres this kid, that has just got me all trippin on words and shit and i totally hate this cause crushes are for pussys... damn i hate this feeling. i havent written about him on this thing so i'm gonna rant some mindless babble about him. hes this artsy skinny german kid with a funny accent called Peter who only wears black, i never thought much about besides weird artsy german kid. thats changed, and its been over a month... you dont write me, why? not feeling much but this somewhat vague fuck this attitude and kinda pysched on what could possibly happen, if that makes any sense at all.
i'm going to a prom, haha. yeah this is my first prom ever, and if it was in america i would definitely not go, but it isnt and peter and i are going together. mixed feelings about that night, i hope its like a molly ringwald movie. yes, that would be nice.
the end.
love love love,
nicki
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| your love unfaded, and undemanding |
[Apr. 16th, 2006|01:55 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | listless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | said and done- Love Is Red | ] |
The Habitat For Humanity trip was a lot of fun, I was expecting worse. but it was an awesome trip...we played manhunt, sat around by a campfire telling scary storys, singing along, looking up at a sky full of stars and then we built the house the following day, which was really awesome. we built it for this old women and her grandchildren. totally exhuasting, but a least it went to an awesome cause.
This Friday, cassi and i are organizing and art exhibit which i'm pretty stoked on doing! it will be lots of fun, and it will be at the legendary art exhibit "Nommo" in Uganda here before the times of Idi Amin.
I'm kinda bummed, NYC this summer is not looking to hot,basically... I'm not going to make it. which sucks cause I really miss everyone, and NYC. I'm kidding myself if I think I could possibly make it. Theres no way I could go to Indonesia and then NYC and make it back to Uganda, its way expensive, and I havent got the time. so yeah, definitely bummed about that, i'm way homesick.
Brighter news! theres a good chance Lauren will be coming up to Uganda from Capetown to visit! I'm psyched. and hopefully, Ahmed can make it to Uganda this summer that will make everything 100 x better.
sincerely,
Nicki
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| Habitat for Humanity |
[Apr. 7th, 2006|10:44 am] |
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| | home | ] |
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| | sick | ] |
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| | something out of nothing- Imperial Leather | ] |
so todays the day! i've been anticpating this Habitat for Humanity trip for quite sometime. i know nothing about building houses, or roughing it. in exactly 3 hours me and some girl friends will be on our way to some rural part of Uganda. I'm not in the best of health, so I hope I'm not making the wrong decision about going and then falling really ill 7 hours away from home. but I just cant miss this trip. I know there is always next year but this is something I need to do.
I'm pretty stoked and nervous as hell, the conditions are pretty extreme and the chances of getting malaria are high this time of year cause its rain season, i'll have to be a malaria medication afterwards.
shit, 3 hours and i still havent packed, or bought anything. oh man!
i'm out.
WISH ME LUCK. i'll need it.
XOXOX
Nicki
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| wish & wait |
[Mar. 21st, 2006|03:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  positive | ] |
| [ | music |
| | diamond laterns- This Is Hell | ] |
i'm really pysched and probably thinking about this shit way to much, but yeah so my dad applied for a position in Costa Rica and and a position in Lebanon. fuck yes!!
Lebanon is amazing, mountains and clear mediterranean beaches all in the same tiny country, and Beirut the city is definitely whats up right now and supposedly has a huge european influence still being somewhat middle eastern. and its a hop, skip and jump from Greece and Croatia.
now... Costa Rica on the other hand would be pretty awesome as well. and i'm both equally psyched for both countries. Costa Rica is right next to the West Indies which is sweet, and has more of a caribbean african latino vibe which i'm into, and I can indentify with the people a little better then Lebanon.
I just don't know where I'm going to end up next which is exiciting, I don't remember the last time I had a stable school experience and it would be a shame to move in between my international baccalaureate program. fuck school though.
There is 3 months of school left which has totally left me itching to get out of here, and day dreaming about this summer constantly. I'm counting down the days which I know is lame since I should be focused on right NOW. but I cant.
I hope to make it to NYC this summer, theres no one I miss more then my best friend Moe. I can't wait to see him. 3 months, I hope it goes by fast and I'll be on the lovely beaches of Indonesia and then hopefully in NYC hugging my favorite person in the world, seeing many people I miss very much.
crossing my fingers!!
-Nicki
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| VIOLA! my Icarus sleeve. |
[Mar. 6th, 2006|09:59 pm] |
i wanted to portray the exuberance of youth, we have big dreams and goals, so I thought of the greek mythology story of Icarus and he portrays all those things. so this is like a new school sort of musical feeling to the story... it has the nyc skyline which is kinda cut off on the bottom, and a smog like effect on top of the skyline. the scroll says "dream is destiny", and instead of using like the actual greek mythological Icarus, daniel and I thought of Cherub which still represents youth, and i like cherubs i've seen it in like old school russian art and it always give a happy classic feel to it and in this case it still represents youth. and Icarus aims for the biggest star of them all which is the sun, and loses his wings while doing so which sucks, so i got the exact moment the feeling where Icarus felt like he was on top of it, and really shooting for the stars oblivious that getting to close to the sun he would lose his wings, thats the spirit of youth... which is awesome. we should always aim higher.
xoxo
Nicki
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| Long Street |
[Feb. 27th, 2006|11:32 am] |
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| | bad man! - MURS | ] |
just got back from south africa, it was an amazing trip.
In Johanneseburg, I met up with Neil of give and take records such an awesome dude I scored a shit load of music.
*Kylesa
*Coalesce
*Spazz
*With Honor/The Distance split
*Good Riddance/Kill your Idols split
*Crucial Unit
and got some stuff from ED Walters the KTMQ/ Del Cielo split, Del Cielo/Sin Des Marie split, and The Great Clearing Off. and scored on a heart attack zine, and a shorter faster louder zine.
AWESOME.
+ got into Captown ate at a shitload of good Veggie restaurants
+met up with Lauren who I havent seen in like 2 years! it was really awesome hanging out with her.
+got my half -sleeve tattoo done!!!! its awesome pics soon.
+good looking boys w/ dreadlocks all over the place, black boys with dreads, colored boys, white boys! it was overwhelming
+mountains and beaches, and penguins lots of penguins.
+lots of bikes
+Long street
-NO KNIFE FIGHT FEST. one of the reasons i chose that week to go to Capetown was to check out the this metal fest. oh well.
Saturday finally came... cassi and i decided to pull an all nighter and spend the whole night on Longstreet and check out the clubs
-checked out one of the most terrible punk rock shows EVER. it made me want to kill everyone there. the kids sucked, the bands sucked, the room was full of smoke. kids sucked.
+got to the Zula club met some awesome people
+mad shawtys
-music sucked
-almost got my shit stolen, but i showed the nigga whats up.
+got into the marvel club, it was hott. the club was so packed with goodlooking dudes and ladies, it was so packed there was like 4 people at toilets at once. totally insane.
+AMAZING TUNES, the the DJ was on point with the hip-hop selections, he even through some oldies like the tempatations, jackson 5. SOOO GOOD.
+every boy telling me how fly i am, how good i look, how they want my number, and how they want me to stay longer. it was great. hahaha.
+ met this awesome cat Tulanni we rambled on and on about the revolution,politics, and good shit like that.
3:30 in the morning came, we drove to the airport, by then i was completely exhuasted and sleep deprived but i just knew i wanted to go back to long street. the followind day finally made to Kampala, Uganda. it was kinda depressing, and what also is kinda depressing is the fact the i'm not travelling anywhere till summer vacation when i hit up Indonesia, possibly NYC. which is totally sweet. 4 months left to go!
I got a week left of vacation. I plan on reading lots, working at the Wildlife center, writing letters to friends, and getting bahas indonesian lessons!
check out my pics on my photobucket of my capetown adventures ...
http://photobucket.com/albums/b316/xilovetofux
XOXOX
Nicki
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| there it go |
[Feb. 18th, 2006|08:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | squalie!- Juelz Santana | ] |
my knees/thighs are sore from bumpin 'n grindin on sweet dudes and sweet ladies. i dont remember the last time i seriously got down like that. pretty awesome.
so i'll be off the internet for a little while, south africa tomorrow, hanging out with Lauren in SA, 3/4 sleeve, shopping, spending money we dont have. sounds like a good vacation.
XOX!
Nicki |
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